Have you ever been the victim? Have you ever had everyone looking at you like you were a home wrecker? like you fucked up a good thing? If this has happened to you I feel your pain. To have people knowing things about you and forming their own opinons about who you might be when they dont even know you...... ALL because of one person?........ That person made you believe things even had your friends believing it too. Knowing that this situation I was put in for 2009 and some of 2008 is just upsetting. I didn't want this... I never tried to go after someone that belonged to someone else, that person came after me. There are alot of women who end up becomming this "other woman" like myself without even knowing it. When a person like this comes along your not expecting it.... they seem so friendly like they are really trying to get to know you. Tellin you how different you seem to be and how its so great that you guys are "friends" first before anything. You dont expect this person to actually lie about all this.... maybe you really are friends. I have talked to some girls who have been the other woman and the main chick who have ended up in this situation. With the main chicks they have no type of sympathy for the other woman... they think that they are sluts or whores who seek out people who have gfs because they like attention. Although sometimes that is true ,but those women are just very unhappy. I was happy when it happened to me Livin life and loving it actually. Then I spoke to an older woman who was the "other woman" and she knew that this man and his girlfriend had just broken up ( or so he said) ,but she figured she would be nice and she knew he was attracted to her.Then 18 months later she has to deal with the fact that this man LIED TO HER the entire time. He never really broke it off when he said he did, he was never as in love as he claimed to be, and he actually had a son he never told her about. He used her and then threw her away once his main chick started gettin to suspicious. Now shes left to deal with the fact that she wasted so much time and energy on someone who never really wanted her in the first place, she was just fun at the moment, Or when the guy couldn't be the person he was supposed to be to his main chick thats when he was with her because he knew she wasnt asking much she just wanted him. I feel her pain I had almost her exact same situation this year. I haven't always been the best person in my life ,but then again who has. Goin through this has made me an even stronger person than I was before. I have never needed a woman to validate my existance but for the first time I allowed myself to feel and then it all ended up being BULLSHIT. Everyone wants to know am I afraid to feel again? the answer is No. im just glad that THAT person and that part of my life is finally over. Believe me there is more to the story ,but thats all that needs to be said. SO 2010 is my NO BS MOVEMENT im not taking it from any person... despite what some people may believe I actually am a good person and I know this upcomming year will bring good things. I can't wait for 2010
SHOUT out to MY PUSHA shes great. I call her this because of a song that perfectly describes what she is to me right now she just keeps my pushin in the right direction. Im sure if she reads this she would be too excited. YES DEAR I do care about you lol.
MY final thought is THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE so start telling it no matter how bad its gonna hurt.
LOVE always
KT
