LOOKING FOR MY FATHER

• soo some people who know me think that now is the time when I should start looking for this man before I go through life for too long without knowing him. My mother died in 1997 and my sisters and my brother all know who their fathers are. The man we thought was my father isn't so I guess when I lost my mother I lost every parent I could possibly have. Finding  him  could bring some closure whether he is dead or alive. I could  have other sisters and brothers I don't know about Or I could have been his only child and he doesn't even know me. Honestly I don't think he knew I existed because I would told he used to come visit my mother every summer because he had cousin who used to live down from my mom. No one can remember his name though. I have asked my aunts and my uncle they aren't too sure who this man could be. I think it would be a very weird situation if I did find him what would I say? what would he think? would he even wanna see me?.. IDK. Since my mother died there has always been this empty space like something is missing ,but I dont think finding him would fill that I just want to know him. I have heard that I look exactly like him and  I have heard he is from Belize or his parents were. Where would I start to look for this man? it seems like it would be a never ending search for someone that might or might not exist anymore. I think it might help to know who he is anyway even if I found him and he doesn't wanna see me or know me. Just  going through life knowing that you are alone ( I know Im not completely alone but without parents is what I mean) is hard. I hate when mothers day and fathers day comes around its just depressing. Like why did this have to happen to me there are millions of people who treat their parents like shit and yet I would love  to just have one. I think I gotta start in compton where my mother used to live and then continue the search from there. My mother attended Harriet Tubman Senior High in Compton im guessing he knew her a few years after she ended high school. The last time He probably saw my mother was in  June or July Of 1988 since I was born in April of 1989. The search for him will start soon I will keep the blog posted on my search for My father

RIP KAREN "KITTY" HARRISON- (1965-1997)
WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MOM
SHE WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON